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Atlanta Journal-Constitution, January 20, 1998.
By Michael Skube.
No Time Like Present To Reflect On Yesterday Don't stop, thinking about
tomorrow The motor was idling, the
morning cold and damp, the heater not yet blowing warm air. We were one
passenger short, and if he wasn't in the car soon, we were leaving without
him. School starts at 7:50. In the rearview mirror I caught a glimpse of
her little head, bobbing to the beat. The lips were moving in that private
way of someone singing just to herself. I could tell she knew all the
words, words I knew only in fragments even way back then. Twenty years
isn't a long time, but the bridge from here to there spans two lifetimes --
both mine. "I didn't know you liked that song, Alex," I said, hoping
she'd catch the note of surprise. She's my rock 'n' roll baby and when
she's deep in thought, or just deep into a song, she's somewhere else. I
understand, and wait for whatever she has to say. "Everybody likes it.
Everybody in second grade," she eventually said, still in that other
place. "You know," I said, "when that song came out, your daddy was
living in Miami and didn't even know your mother. I'll bet you didn't know
that." "Daaad, I'm trying to listen." I know when to shut up. While
Lindsey Buckingham and Christine McVie harmonized, I looked into the
rearview mirror again. I do it a lot, more than I need to. Funny that the
lines should say "Don't look back," when nothing will get you doing it like
Mick Fleetwood's driving drumbeat, Buckingham's lead guitar, John McVie's
bass and Stevie Nicks' and Christine McVie's vocals, the one gutsy and
taunting, the other coolly sensual. The color of the carpets came back
(white shag), the arrangement of the house, the yard, people I'll never see
again, the route I took to a 9-to-5 job I hated. Hated so much I actually
considered digging ditches, but instead got into journalism. All of it
came back, and it looked better from a distance. Don't stop thinking
about tomorrow, the song says, but yesterday's not as gone as you think.
In the quiet hours, you think about yesterday. Last week, I stayed up
until midnight watching film clips of Fleetwood Mac, and I wasn't thinking
about tomorrow. On VH-1, members of the group recounted those strung-out
years, the well-publicized splits and jealousies and betrayals. The
alcohol and the drugs. The money. So much of it. "Rumours," the group's
biggest album, came out in 1977. Not only were they still young, but I was
still young. The '70s, for me, weren't strung out and they weren't
anything close to Mick Fleetwood's. I was fit as a greyhound. But there
was still a connection, emotional more than physical. Lindsey and Stevie
have split up, but you can tell he still loves her. Christine and John
have split up, too. But they're still friends and live down the street
from each other. They trade recipes! You can go your own way, but you do
look back and you always will. As I put the car in gear, asking a final
time if everyone had papers, books, lunches, money, sweaters, I turned the
volume up a little. "Alex, someday I'll tell you and Noah why I like that
song so much."
Thanks to Tracy G. for posting this to the Ledge and to Anusha for sending it to us.
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